Something a friend said today struck me. He said he felt like a leaf being blown any which way and ending up wherever he was, rather than having made any conscious attempt to take charge. He could tell I was like that too from my entries. And I must admit I am. I'm letting work rule my life more than I should, and I'm not doing so cos I'm keen on focusing on my career. I'm just.. responsible. Life today is similar to life last year and the year before, give or take some variations. I'm not sure it will change much next year either.

I guess I feel emptied out.
Or rather, I yearn to burn.