Today I've watched 4 film sessions and my favourite so far is Lukas Moodysson's "A Hole in My Heart", about a man Rickard shooting a porn film in his apartment with his friend Geko (who falls comatose even during sex as he dreams of running in a field of gold) and Tess (who claims she has wanted to be in a porn film since she was 12). Rickard's son Eric seems to be the only sane person as he tries to shut out the proceedings by losing himself in his own isolated world. The actor who starred as Eric came in person to present the film, but unfortunately he is only 19 and unable to watch the film he starred in cos it's rated R21. How ironic.

The film didn't focus on the fact that this actor was born with some of his right fingers fused together, but you could see his flipper-like hand in quick glimpses. After the show, there was a chance for the audience to talk to the actor but I didn't want to intrude. Instead I stood from a distance observing this shy young man hide his right hand in his jean pocket as he chatted politely.

I sincerely wished I had told him he did well.
And that I thought he has beautiful hands.