I told a friend that I used to harbour thoughts of being (and nearly was) a xiao nu ren (Chinese phrase which literally means small woman, ie. meek subservient woman who will obey men and be contented). My friend snorted derisively and said the only way I could qualify for that now is cos of my built. Gee. Thanks a lot.

I really mean it though, but there's no turning back now. Nor do I wish to.